I'm having those same problems with people again. People not wanting to talk to me, people avoiding me, and generally feeling unwanted and despised. It's really heart wrenching, actually. I feel like I'm drowning alone in the middle of a crowd. I could scream and scream and I don't know if anyone could hear me. It's not depression. It's anxiety. I don't know who to rely on or who to trust or anything. I can't sit in a room and talk to anyone or give my troubles to someone else or anything.
I'm scared. I wish I wasn't.
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I'd like to leave a comment on here but I dont know what exactly to say. I guess I'll just say what I feel makes sense. You take anything you find valuable out of it and add other stuff to it. We'll call it the Mike Nayyar curry. Lets start with the basics. You are an intelligent mind, no doubt about that. You dont look like a freak and from what I understand, you bathe regularly. So far, so good.
About people not wanting to talk to you...is that fact or fiction? I bet its a story you are making up. People live their lives around stories they create which is quite funny really if you stop to think about it. Whens the last time you called 911 because the big bad wolf ate grandmother and was trying to sweet-talk little red?? You never did...because thats a story. People not liking you and avoiding you is similar...its just not written down in a book. Stop living that story. NOW!
It seems like you need a little inspiration in life. I suggest picking up something new to do...something fun and creative that expresses who you are and what you love. I like listening to music, I play music because I like it and I can express myself...even though it's not nearly at the level I want it to be, it's something I can create and call my own which is far more constructive than these stupid blog postings about how pathetic you think your life is. Because truth be told, there is no truth. So you create your world babe.
Try looking up, taking time in your life and figuring out you. What do you want? Who do you want to create yourself to be? You can create one human being in the world to be anything you choose. And that person is you. Do I need to get into details about how to do it, or can your brillance figure it out? Right foot, left foot.
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